plus we had the whole 'sorry future me', followed by the internal fuck you when we did something that might've not been the smart
question 95: do you think there were "signs" of your plurality before you officially discovered it (if that applies to you)? what were they, if you dont mind sharing?
๐ฐ-Do you have a large headcount?
๐พ-Do any alters in your system have typing quirks?
๐-Does your system have any Non-human alters?
โ๏ธ-Is your system neurodivergent?
๐ญ-Does your system use neo Pronouns?
๐ -Do any of the alters in your system have dyed hair?
๐-Are there any nonverbal alters in your system?
๐ช-Does your system have Angry or "dangerous" persecutors?
๐ซ-Do your littles use 'little-speech?'
๐-Does your system have little to no amnesia between switches?
๐-Does your system have fairly clear communication?
๐-Do you have a large or complex headspace?
๐ธ-Do any alters in your system have exo-memories?
๐ฝDoes your system have any tics?
โ๏ธ-is your system bad at masking?
โจ๏ธ-Do any alters in your system have an accent?
๐-Do any alters in your system speak in a different language?
โ๏ธ-Does your system use things like pluralkit and simply plural?
โญ๏ธ-are you out about being a system?
What it feels like waking up dissociated:
โJohn
Traumagenic and endogenic headmates aren't enemies by the way. Sometimes they play Minecraft together. Sometimes they hold hands. Sometimes they kiss. Sometimes they cover work shifts or school for each other. Sometimes even within the same system. This goes for disordered and nondisordered systems too btw.
when you try to share a silly story from your past and they look at you in horror and ask if youre okay
the random urge to run into the woods bc we think we can survive and itโs better than here is always a fun one.
being susceptible to splitting and anxiety is the worst fucking combo ever ... like what the fuck are these guys here for when that shit didn't even happen yet
the amount of censorship and ignorance regarding anything that isn't remotely 'normal' or seems 'realistic' to the average eye is absolutely disgusting and genuinely ableist. see someone who's visibly disabled? oh, no, you can never go up to them! come on! avoid them! they're too different from you. you would never be able to understand them. they would never be able to understand you. have a friend who has a stigmatized mental health condition? oh! they must be faking! nobody *actually* has that! it's too rare! we should stop being friends with them! they must be a monster! have someone tell you that you have an invisible disability? that doesn't exist! if i cant see it, then you don't have it! i know your body better than you do! prove you have your disability, then! and the funny thing is, these types of things are completely censored- viewed as 'wrong' or 'not something to be talked about'. when really, it's just an excuse to not talk about, spread awareness, or allow those who are troubled by these conditions to speak up. TALK ABOUT YOUR ILLNESS. TALK ABOUT YOUR DISABILITY. TALK ABOUT YOUR 'ABNORMALCY'. show the world that **you aren't weird or crazy or monstrous for not fitting the norm.**
having to figure who you are right now is like playing "guess who!"
like mf just tell me who i am i shouldnt have to weed out who i am
WAIT.... so you're saying... there are people who don't... experience at least some form of mild pain on a daily basis???
you aren't a bad person if your source is terrible.
you aren't a bad person if your source is an abuser.
you aren't a bad person if your source is a rapist.
you aren't a bad person if your source has a problematic creator.
you aren't a bad person if your source is anything, anything.
However, if you blame an introject for their source, tell them to kill themselves for it, treat them like their source when they tell you not too, push boundaries or persistently ask them questions, try and make it like they should be extremely ashamed and horrified 24/7 atwhere they introjected from. You are an asshole.
(they/them)disordered systemi don't care what you label yourself as, it's not my business. just keep the fucking discourse off this blog.
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